Life is going in a cycle...

Today not getting the mood to write much ! but need to write something... have been working almost the whole day! feeling tired also though slept for more than an hour in the afternoon. had a really stupid and bad dream that time... it combined all the movies seen and stories read this week ! but today morning only, was having a very nice dream and didnt feel like getting up. it felt like more than a dream, it felt so real. after i got up, the dream reminded me of some sweet memories from the past. and somehow that made me sad too ! anyway, a dream is only a dream... but sometimes it feels nice.

Life is going in a cycle... sometimes good mood, good time and sometimes bad mood, bad time ! right now, i am unable to understand which condition i am in... not sad, but not very happy either ! listening to old hindi songs... now playing: lambi judai... (http://www.hindilyrix.com/songs/get_song_Lambi%20Judai.html). I love listening to old hindi songs. recently have started listening to english songs too... i never used to enjoy english songs becuase the lyrics was difficult to understand. but now i get the lyrics from net and enjoy the songs :)

Today, will have to sleep early. for the past few days have been missing the breakfast in the mess. and since i have discussion with madam tomorrow, cant go to coffee board if i am late !

working late !

Its beyond 2am ! can't believe i am still working and not feeling sleepy. maybe bcoz of the post-lunch nap. noone is in the lab... everybody has gone to sleep except me !

today i am feeling much lighter that yesterday. yesterday there was some strain working on me ! was feeling very depressed. couldn't chat with joy also properly. today the mood is lighter and we are having some nice conversation. it feels better. waiting for those days when we will be at the same place... no chatting trough gaim/ym but talking face to face. i want to be happy above everything. and i want to have the peace of mind. here i dont have that with all the complications. i hope life with joy, when we are together, will be simpler than the present life.

need to go back to room now. otherwise wont be able to get up tomorrow. need to be in the lab by at least 10am.

Bored !

Today I have started preparing slides for my presentaion, which btw, is on 30th... Its really a boring job ! Have made some ten slides only. I have two more days to finish making the slides as I am going to give a mock presentation to my labmates on Friday. Waiting for next Wednesday when it will be over finally...

Not feeling very sleepy; slept for about two hours in the afternoon. Donno what to do right now ! No mood for making more slides... will do that tomorrow. Maybe will go to room and finish reading the story which i started last night...

Today my younger brother came home. feeling so relaxed... hope the future is brighter for all of us.

This weekend...

Well, this weekend was better than the last one... went to watch the latest HP movie (The Goblet of Fire) in theatre yesterday :) It was good although I had almost forgotten the story... but one thing is true... books, from which the movies are made, are definitely better than the movies (only with few exceptions and i am yet to find one).

Went out for dinner today with my friends. We went to 'kolkata food', a small bengali restaurant... had nice meal there, followed by rasogolla and gulab jamun... then we walked back and it must have been more than 2 kms...

Have got a bad cold ! it got worsened by the AC in the theatre last evening :( had covered myself properly and still couldn't avoid it ! i donno how i am going to get rid of this cold ! bangalore doesn't suit me :((

lately have been thinking what if i was given a chance to go back to my past and make some decisions which wouldnt lead to this life ! for sure, i would have wanted to do two things... one, never accept phd offer of iisc (maybe a project-assistant post and prepare for gre from here, but not a regular student), and two, learn some indian classical dance :) i still wish i had learned that in my university. there was ample of chance but never thought seriously about it at that time. now that i think of it, i feel i have wasted a golden opportunity :( well, life is irreversible... otherwise, i wouldn't have been sitting in this lab now :(( life sometimes is boring here in iisc commuting only between room and mess and lab ! donno what else to do... no going out (except for dinner on some weekends)... i remember my first year and miss that so badly :( life was fun at that time with joy being here. it has never been the same after he left. i remember i was so happy when i got the chance in iisc (of course, never thinking about the consequences which were to come). i donno how we didnt see it coming. sigh... just the thought of all the good times we deserve together but are not having makes me very sad :( and i donno how long i have to be here before that can be achieved ! is it two years ? more than that ? or less ? time will tell...

Too much work followed by a movie :)

Yesterday was a bit hectic day ! had to finish my paper revision... which I did and sent to my Prof. in Kolkata... now waiting for his reply. In the meantime have to do some other work... my work presentation is less than 2 weeks away and I have to do some more work before that. lets see how much I can manage...

Watched 'Indecent Proposal' last night... got so bugged up with the revision that had to take that break. It was a very nice movie... very touchy theme. The lines which impressed me most are:

Diana: "If you ever want something badly, let it go. If it comes back to you, then it's yours forever. If it doesn't, then it was never yours to begin with."

David: "I thought we were invincible. But now I know that the things that people in love do to each other, they remember. And if they stay together, it's not because they forget. It's because they forgive."

Love is hard work !

Joy sent me a link today which he got by googling for 'love is hard work' :) One quote I sent him yesterday inspired him to do this !

anyway, the article titled 'Why Do You Work So Hard?' was a good read... It says "There remains this enormous and wicked sociocultural myth. It is this: Hard work is all there is." One has to read the full article to see what the writer means to say !

I like reading humorous articles too. check out http://www.melvindurai.com/ if you too like humor columns...

Why LJ ?

Blogspot is good, but with one shortcoming... that is 'password protection' ! I want to keep some of my thoughts to myself only and blogspot is no help to that... so the way out is to use Livejournal for that specific purpose :)

Great ! I hope to update both Blogstop and LJ regularly ;)

IMPOSSIBLE !

Was supposed to work and finish off the paper review ! but didn't do anything after dinner :( started chatting with joy (which btw is still going on)... and while doing that updated my profile in orkut :)

Read some very nice quotes today... will post them here sometimes... have used some of them in my profile... I liked this one very much : 'Nothing is impossible, even the word IMPOSSIBLE says I M POSSIBLE' ! what do you say ? one more : 'LOVE is Hard Work, And Hard Work Sometimes Hurts'... yeah true ! and who understands this better than me? and you, joy !

Can you believe this ?

Visit the following site to read an interesting article:
http://nripulse.com/profile_DrKumar.htm

It's Monday again !

Sunday nights are always a little restless for me as I HAVE to get up a little earlier on Mondays. Why ? I have my MUST discussions with my guide at 10AM. But even if I put alarm, invariably I get up late... Today reached the lab at 9.30 and had time enough to make a plot for the discussion which didn't last long because she was busy :) anyway, have to do some other work and get back to her in the afternoon to finish the revision of my paper !

It was very cold last night ! coldest day of this month till now :( i guess its going to be bad this time... and added to that my room is damp ! i was literally shivering in my room. that is the reason dont feel like getting up in the morning... anyway, time to get back to work !

First blog

Writing my first blog ! Have long left the habit of writing... but i guess its time i start it once again... so here i go without knowing at this moment what to write :) its sunday evening with nothin to do ! so passing my time by listening to Jagjit Singh (Badi nazuk hai yeh manzil, mohabbat ka safar hai...).