I shifted to another room in the same hostel with another girl. My previous room was not a good one and in the rainy season it became damp ! And with my breathing problem few months back, it was not a good idea to keep on staying in that room now that rainy season is almost here. The present room in the second floor is far better with lots of air and light compared to the previous room which was in the ground floor with not much light. My roommate Debaleena is quite younger to me. She joined IISc last year and is doing her Integrated PhD in Physics.
This year is not a good one for me ! Having lots of physical problems. Not to mention the emotional ones. Room shifting caused some breathing problem again because of dust ! Whole night couldnt sleep bcoz of the breathing problem. Was very tired the whole day. Both physically and emotionally I am drained out. I think I have forgotten how to enjoy life. I keep on saying that one should get the best out of any situation one finds oneself. I have been doing the same. But lately it is becoming increasingly difficult for me to do that. I have forgotten how to be happy. I am unable to concentrate on my work. Guess I need a change but donno how to take that ! So moving on with life as it is presenting itself to me...
http://in.rediff.com/getahead/2006/jun/08mar.htm : came across this while reading rediff. People who are planning to get married probably will find it useful. Being myself married, I think it is worth going through at least. Lots of things change after marriage. But people like me want to keep it the same way ! At least in a broader sense. But change is in nature. How can I stop it ?
My husband said today 'what dont kill ya makes ya stronger' and all the hard time we are going through will ultimately help me. The truth is I am beyond my capacity and I don't understand or believe these things anymore. I admire him for what he has done for himself. He has gone a long way and I wish his dreams come true. Professionally he is successful and of course doesn't want to leave all these things just for a relation. So for a better priceless future we are living in two different continents ! Thats how our generation wants to live. Sacrifice the present for a so called better and secure future ! A future which nobody knows... and one might not be there to live in that 'better future' ! Thats the irony with our generation...
This year is not a good one for me ! Having lots of physical problems. Not to mention the emotional ones. Room shifting caused some breathing problem again because of dust ! Whole night couldnt sleep bcoz of the breathing problem. Was very tired the whole day. Both physically and emotionally I am drained out. I think I have forgotten how to enjoy life. I keep on saying that one should get the best out of any situation one finds oneself. I have been doing the same. But lately it is becoming increasingly difficult for me to do that. I have forgotten how to be happy. I am unable to concentrate on my work. Guess I need a change but donno how to take that ! So moving on with life as it is presenting itself to me...
http://in.rediff.com/getahead/2006/jun/08mar.htm : came across this while reading rediff. People who are planning to get married probably will find it useful. Being myself married, I think it is worth going through at least. Lots of things change after marriage. But people like me want to keep it the same way ! At least in a broader sense. But change is in nature. How can I stop it ?
My husband said today 'what dont kill ya makes ya stronger' and all the hard time we are going through will ultimately help me. The truth is I am beyond my capacity and I don't understand or believe these things anymore. I admire him for what he has done for himself. He has gone a long way and I wish his dreams come true. Professionally he is successful and of course doesn't want to leave all these things just for a relation. So for a better priceless future we are living in two different continents ! Thats how our generation wants to live. Sacrifice the present for a so called better and secure future ! A future which nobody knows... and one might not be there to live in that 'better future' ! Thats the irony with our generation...
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